A reflection on on Luke 12:35–38 for Tuesday of the 29th Week in Ordinary Time.
The servants in this Gospel are in for a long night. Their lamps are burning, their clothes are ready for work, and they are waiting for the master to return. They expect that there will be something else to do when he shows up. But Jesus says the master will seat them and will serve them himself. I’m not sure I would manage to stay in my chair.
I imagine myself saying, “Is there something I can do to help?” Or “I’m fine really.” Or “I’m not that tired.” Being useful gives me a role I understand. Sitting while someone cares for me doesn’t let me keep control of the situation.
This is also true in prayer. I lay out my concerns, intentions, and a fairly thorough account of what needs to be done. That is fine. But when I have nothing to say, I can feel as though I am wasting my time. I may start searching for something that needs to be taken care of, even there.
Jesus’ picture of the master upends that assumption. These servants have been faithful, and he enjoys caring for them. He sees their waiting and their tiredness. I would like to believe that he sees mine with the same tenderness. I don’t even need to explain why my life isn’t as tidy as it probably should be.
Receiving care from our Lord also means allowing myself to discover what I need. I can say a general prayer easily. But I can’t always admit that I am lonely, discouraged, or unsure. Letting Jesus just love me in prayer can bring things like that to the surface. And it can lead to very honest prayer.
I’ve heard prayer described as wasting time with God. So tonight I can sit for a few minutes without making a report. If a worry comes, I can tell him. If nothing comes, I can just sit with the Lord and see where that leads me.
Prayer
Lord Jesus, you know how quickly I look for something to do. Help me receive your care without embarrassment or excuses. Let me bring you my needs honestly and rest in your love. Amen.