When Did Enough Become a Moving Target?

A reflection on Philippians 4:10–19 for Saturday of the 31st Week in Ordinary Time.

I imagine the number quite clearly in my mind: the amount in savings that would let me stop worrying. It is a sensible amount, allowing for repairs, illness, and whatever expensive surprise the house might be preparing. The trouble is that when I get nearer to it, I think of several reasons it ought to be higher. Apparently, my peace of mind is subject to inflation.

Paul says he has learned to be content with little or plenty. I am glad he says “learned.” It suggests this took some time and effort. He had known hunger and need, and he gratefully accepted the Philippians’ help. His contentment includes room for receiving practical support. There is no suggestion that struggling people should simply adjust their attitude.

I would hesitate to suggest this passage to someone deciding which bill can wait. Money does make a difference. A steady income and some savings can spare people considerable suffering. But I ask myself a different question: when I have enough for today and something put aside, why do I still feel that my safety is in reaching my next financial goal?

Some of that concern is reasonable. I have obligations, and planning for them is an act of care for myself and my family. But savings can promise things they cannot deliver. No balance can guarantee that everyone I love will be well or that I will be self-sufficiant. I keep adding to the account while ignoring that expectation.

Paul finds his strength in Christ. I expect he still felt anxious at times. But he could face changing circumstances without having to plan for every outcome first.

I would like to develop some of that freedom.  Is there a real expense I need to prepare for? Or am I frightened, and giving that fear another sum to calculate? I can converse with God about both of these. I do not have to disguise anxiety as excellent financial judgment.

Prayer

Lord Jesus, help me provide wisely for my needs and recognize when I have enough. When planning turns into worry, help me tell you what I fear. Teach me the contentment Paul learned through trusting you. Amen.